I have to admit that I wasn't too disappointed to see the sun set on 2012. While for the majority of the year we experienced a lot of joy, the end of the year brought many challenges for me personally.
For quite some time I've suffered from severe OCD and crippling health anxiety. However, I was able to deal with it and even manage it quite well for the past few years. But with an unexpected surgery and lack of medication (by choice for the past 6 months)- it unfortunately created the perfect storm for a major relapse.
Every day is still a struggle. Our trip to see friends and family brought on many highs. But coming back to the usual routine has brought on some disappointing lows.
I'm still determined to get better. I'm still working hard to combat my fears and focus on a positive future. But given that takes up the majority of my energy every day, I've decided to keep my New Year's resolutions simple.
I just want to be a better person.
And here is how I intend to try:
Listen without interrupting
Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife.
Share without pretending
Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ.
Enjoy without complaint.
Do everything without grumbling or arguing
Trust without wavering.
it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres
Forgive without punishing.
Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
Promise without forgetting
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life