Life on Display.

I'm a sensitive soul- I'll admit it. My heart can be crispy at times, needing delicate touch and understanding. Which is why I sometimes need to remind myself why I do this whole "blog" thing. Lately, I've been hearing more and more negative comments about blogs.  On the news, in the books I'm reading, even from passing strangers and people in group settings.

"Why do people insist on putting their lives on display?"

Ouch. My crispy little heart starts to break into pieces. I'm one of those people. I put my "life on display" each and every day I write on here.

Then insecurity creeps in and floods my mind. I reconsider what I'm doing and challenge everything I intended to do with this little space of mine. I wonder if what I'm saying is taken out of context. I wonder if I've offended someone on accident. I even wonder if I've shared too much and if I've swapped privacy for too much transparency.

But every time I re-evaluate this blog, I come back to it. My confidence boomerangs back to my crispy heart and I regain the initial understanding of why I do this. I'm doing this for myself. I'm not trying to hurt anyone. I'm not trying to over share. And I'm certainly not trying to make my life something it is not.

The tricky part about blogging and transparency is that we will hurt others if we tell the whole story. I've alluded to our struggles and if you can read between the lines then that's great. And if you can't, then just know that we have struggles, too. I don't intend to write our story as one of perfection and Utopian bliss. We are normal. We hurt, grieve, fight, misunderstand and make mistakes. Often.

And that's just it- I want to capture it all. I want to remember this time in our lives.  The good, the bad, the ugly and especially the great. So this is my life- and the life I share with Rian. It's the way I see it and it's the way I've chosen to share it.

Thank you for reading without judgment and for caring enough to scan these words. If gives me more confidence than you will ever know.

*Photo by Jessica Watson Photography*